I live with my mom and everyone believes things are perfect because I get nice things. But at what expanse.... I get these things as a result of my mother NEVER being home...she can't even tell you any of my teachers names. I have no clue when the last time she went to parent teacher conferences was.i am always basically home alone. Sure I have a foster sister and my friend is practically living with us but she is busy doing her own thing you know going out trying to get a job...etc my foster sister is 11 and I can't really tell her everything because she would go tell everyone and it's not like she would understand anyway. Everyone assumes I am happy that life is perfect but it's not. I'm locked up in a room expected to be the perfect child balance all my honors classes and my extra curriculars my dog and my chores. My mom balances between work the dog and the bills. God forbid I forget to do one thing she will talk my ear off...and I. Not even being a whiner because my friends get away with two times as much as I do... When I see them talking back to their parents all I can think is I would never be able to do that...and live.
Besides that my mother wants to get rid of my dog... Nala is all I have when I'm all alone when no one else understands. Without her I'm left with a room full of nothing to solve anything.
My dad missed probably the biggest performance of my life this year. Which I'm still coping with he lives like a billion miles away so it's not like I see or hear from him on a regular. My brother I haven't heard from him in sooo long I don't even know how tall he is in person anymore.
I'm not truly happy anymore...besides seeing shadow but my mom complains about that too. It's not like I ever really go anywhere where am I going to go.shadow lives on the other side of the city so that's a no. I'm drowning in homework everyday I've got other stuff to worry about and I still manage to keep a smile on my face...
The school told me of I faint one more time I'm home schooled which only makes me even more stressed. And yet I smile.
I'm not asking for an award just peace of mind. Am I crazy am I complaining for nothing...or am I right.should I have to deal with this at 16?
And now you ask the million dollar question...are you happy with your life? As of right now. No I am not. Shadow makes me happy.but when do I ever get to see him without being hassled about it. Nala makes me happy but my mom wants her gone. Dance makes me happy but the season is over and my dad missed my show. Blogging makes me happy but you have no answers for me just an empty slate....
Blog ya later...I guess
