Happy new year...from a new me

It's 2012 bitchessss!! I'm sooo glad I got to talk to shadow through the cross over ( the ball dropping) and my cousins are here with Me and we are screaming and acting crazy and swooping stories..let's call them "jacquline and carter" we even got a bottle to drink :D but don't tell anyone! We messed with my crazy little yorkie Nala.... I recently found out thar shadow is allergic to her :(

It's all cool though we know now and it won't happen again...ever

Either way we exchanged gifts on Christmas he got me the best gift EVER! It was two mix tapes personally made by him and a journal that had a whole bunch of cute doodles from when he was younger and an explaination of why he chose each song and why it's important! I love it and I listen to them everyday :) I made him this amazing card it had a cute storyline and everything it took a long time to make! The storyline was basically me searching for the perfect gift and everything I got for him just some how wasn't working out or it wasn't good enough it was all hand drawn and colored and it was just all around amazing in my opinion...and I got him like an axe pack because he likes axe and I'm selfish and I'm kinda addicted to axe!

One time I sniffed a random guy in the mall because he was wearing axe and he smelled sooooo good.

He seemed to like it I hope... I've already started working on his birthday gift and if all works out its gonna be amazing on every level of amazing ness! Anyways I gotta go jacquline and carter are giving me that look lol!

So... Till next time

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hahaha im back!

nevermind i just realized i have sooo much time but im gonna use this post to doodle out my new book ideas because i just remembered that i should be wayyy further along with it but yet i am still planning it out! I think im gonna title it love is blind or love is crazy or the funny thing about love...or something like that...you get my drift right...good

either way here are my notes soo far...

Protagonist: Zela Jackson, and Phil Flannigan
Antagonist: Eugene Anderson

the rest of these notes probably wont make sense but bare with me anyway:

1. begins with Argument with Anderson (yes everyone calls him anderson because he doesnt like the name Eugene) the argument nearly tears their relationship apart {eugene-Zela= :( }


2. Relationship already had problems no one approved because anderson is older and they are always arguing about something...


3. introduction of Phil. having his own relationship problems...Phil and Zela meet at a wild party and he nearly saves her life...but it was too dark for her to get a good look at his face...and he left too quickly for her to catch his name.


4. Zela is taken by this mysterious guy doodling a masked hero all over her notebooks swooping in and saving her.


5. Phil and Zela talk in class but she doesn't realize it was him...they become close and Anderson gets jealous..


6. Anderson threatens Phil without Zela knowing.but she does not believe phil when he tells her.


7. Zelas cousin (name to be decided) is highly involved with her relationship with Eugene she actually got them together...when she senses the relationship falling apart she blames phil causing a huge argument]


8. THE MOMENT... zela is going to class and inside she sees phil and how he looks sickly and depressed and it drains her soul.


9. she decides to ask about it later...and thats when he explains his break up. she feels horrible but apart of her saw it comming...she gave him advice although she knew inside she sort of liked him...


10. on the phone she explains to him how someone mysterious saved her at a party and he realizes it was him. but he doesnot tell her. she goes on to explain that he will never know who could just swoop in and save him from his heartache and it would be the most unsuspecting person.


11. Mood switch: Zela...hunny ...i think she is waking up....can you hear me Zela please.


12. Anderson comes to her house late one night asking Zela if she still loves him. she replies like a friend but right now this is too complicated for me. he pulls out a knife and stabs her screaming if you cant love me you cannot love anyone else.

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1. Zela dies and at her funeral journal entries are read explaining how she has a strange feeling about what Anderson might do and strange farewell notes to her friends and family and the mysterious guy from the party who will always own her heart.


2. Phil attends the service visibly shaken...he asks to say a few words and he goes up and reads a note she had given him....you can tell he fights off tears before he begins singing.... ill be your hero-sterling knight. he reveals that he is the mystery hero and everyone is visibly sadden at the thought because she never got to tell him she loved him

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Alternate ending:

1. Zela is in critical condition after Anderson attacks her...he gets away.


2. in her hospital room many people come in and out visiting her...she was legally dead for 3 minutes and is in and out of a coma.


3. Phil comes to visit her and she tries her hardest to open her eyes once she hears his voice.she wants to tell him everything tell her she is ok...but just then he explains to her he is the mysterious hero ....although she is in a comma at the time her still lifeless body produces a tear and he leaves wondering if she heard him....


4. Zela'scondition stablizes and she is able to go home...parts of her memory missing still...susposedly to return according to doctors...until then she jst reads her diary and letting old memories flow back to her.


5. She remember faintly a boy comming to her telling her he is the mystery hero. but she has no clue if it was a dream or not. just in the midst of wondering she hears music out her window....


6. she looks out to find Phil standing there holding up a boom box playing ill be your hero- Sterling knight...


7. she realizes it was not a dream and runs down to him...


8. Anderson was never convicted guilty because a week later he is found dead in his car with a note saying now she can never love me so i can not live.


9. Phil and Zela live happily ever after...or some corny ending like that...

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symbols:

magnets Zela and phil

journal

fortune cookies...

maskquerade ball* subject to change

I know it sounds kind of sad and depressing but trust me once i add the little details in i promise it wont be sooo sad...it will be the cutest love story ever....soo guys which ending do you like better??

this whole storyline is subject to change....because it was written differently before and i might want to make it more cutesy for all the true love saps who would be angry other wise....thanks for reading

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Bestiee alerttt!!!

HELLLOOOO creepy weirdos who read all my personal business!
lol just kidding you know i loveyou!
anywayysss so my bestest buddy "crystal" found out about my blog during drivers ed...nooo clue how we ended up talking about it...but she told me to write a post about her and this is it! and she even picked out her anonymous name! she is AMAZING and everyone loves her! she has my initials....we are initial buddies! she dating one of my other friends whos name is....ummm....you dont need to know because its not important for you to know! but they are such a cutee couple and they look soooooo happy! im glad for them and i hope they last forever and ever! either way this class might end soon sooo i gotta cut this short...so in final words i love crystal and i hope she is ok with this post!!!!!!
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It's the most wonderful time of the year :)

The season of love....it's in the air swirling around us it's everywhere and you can't escape the feeling :)

Heyooo web peoplesss... Soo today all I could think about is the holidays people have Christmas lights up and trees and stuff...and my dad is taking me shadow and two other friends ice skating...in rockefeller center and we will get to see the tree bottom line it will be the most romantic time ever! And then my mom wants to also bring me and shadow into new York to eat at this really fancy restaurant also romantic only down fall is she wants to bring his older brother and his girlfriend who we will call "the it's" shadows mom doesn't like for him and the it's to go places together because it "ends badly" whatever that means...I like his brother I have no problem with him i think he is pretty funny his girl friend is nice no matter what other people think...but to go anywhere shadow has to stay on his moms good side until the break...one more week..ldoesnt sound tool hard right.l. WRONG! She's pretty tough but her parenting makes shadow the way he is soo I can't be too mad I guess but I really hope nothing bad happens...

Yesterday I was actually at shadows house with the it's and other friends it was fun eating pizza and surfing tumblr...and then I walked over and saw ...it

Their Christmas tree. It was beautiful it even had a black angel on top...and even though I would never admit it I tears up a bit when I saw it. Because I never got to do stuff like that with my famil as a whole the closest I have ever gotten to a tree was this Little two foot tall fake pink Barbie tree...at my moms apartment...either way after I saw it I just wanted to be there in that room..l

I wanted to just let the lights shine on me and imagine it was all mine and the picture frame ornaments on the tree were from my childhood memories...it crushed me a little inside to know that would never be my reality...but I'm strong I'll live ....life goes on. So later on I decide I just need an excuse to stay in this room because I had this obvious connection with that tree...which sounds creepy but considering what I meant...cut me some slack. I spotted there giant piano and immediately sat at the bench and rattled off whatever notes came to mind which were the first five notes of fur Elise the Beethoven and the national anthem...I had the whole house helping me to figure out the rest of the notes to fur Elise but the whole time I'm sooo overwhelmed with the idea of the tree I couldn't focus as soon as I got home I turned my iPad on to the virtual piano and figured out the rest of the notes easily... For those of you who don't know I play the flute soo it's not like im some musically talented mastermind I can read notes I just have Noo clue where they are on the piano. I somehow managed to figure it out and I was satisfied and I just completely passed out right after.

Now I'm off to pretend that everything's okay and that I didn't wish everything about my home life was different...but never telling anyone sooo till next time

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A fake out?!

OMG shadow is tooo good...

soooo awhile ago i was doing this thing where i get all close like im about to kiss him and i look away and hes like O.O but awhile ago in the morning he did it to me....and boy he got me good...i was thinking bout it all day long...i just wanted him all day...all of him I guess I never knew how much it made me want him until I went home and I'm like :O did that just happen? it was ironic cause I didn't know how it felt until that moment when it went from just a kiss to a moment much more taken away so quickly I couldn't even see it coming....I guess this will be a short post but I just had to write it...

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Oh really?!??!

Im in school again...i have a cold soo i cant take medicine for my migranes only for the cold....sooo my head is killing me im dizzy and if i sneeze one more time im 25% sure ill explode... and the medicine i take for my colds makes me really loopy and crazy but it does calm my nerves sooo im more open too new things not too uptight...
Anyways someone in my class was reading some of the poems from awhile ago and he says that they are all from a female prespective....and i was like sooo im a girl! sooo he bet me i couldn't write one that rhymed from a male perspective....CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
soooo this is off the top of my loopy head! so here it goes:

succlent thighs, bright eyes, oh how those hips will lead to my demise.
She never lies and theres no second chance no second tries...if she cries the whole world dies... for the loss of the most wise.... for her i save my marital ties... <3

Soooo ha! i know its all sappy and crappy (i am good at ryhming) and i guy would probably never say this but its from a male perspective... it was easier then my normal poems to write because the words were easy to ryhme and it sounds sorta like a chris brown baby come back tribute to rihanna....(ha i made a funny!) either way i did it no matter how crappy it is....and i did it while im sick soo i deserve props for the effort!
sooo uhhh....byee
(blog post #101)
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Long time No Blog...

Hey guys sorry i know i haven't written anything in awhile but i hope everyone had a great turkey weekend and black friday....i know i did!I got the ipad2! on Black fridayin the mall....i am soooo happy about that my thanksgiving is sort of a bluri remember loading my plate with food and then waking up face first in my mashed potatoes!...(joking of course) but i got to see my dads side of the family i missed them sooo much and my younger brother....i went to the mall down by my grandmas house....i am in loooveeee with this mall it has all of my favorite stores!...im not going to rant about my mall trip because no one really cares about that...anyways uhhh after buying my ipad i got back home and my friends came over for a not-so-party party! it was bunches of fun...but my mom flipped because we left a mess and in the morning i went back down to the mall by grandma leaving the mess...i went and bought this really pretty red christmas earrings for my mom but all hell broke lose when i got back home...she flipped out over the mess and yelled at me for spending MY money when i went shopping with my dad instead of waiting to use it only when we go shopping of with my friends....sounds crazy right! well fastfoward a couple of minutes im crying shes yelling and cursing me out in certain terms not legal for me to say on the internet and i just sat and listened...i hadnt told her that yes while i brought myself earrings and a shirt i got her earrings too....i just let her ramble....when she finished i handed her the bag and said merry christmas and walked away... she came up to my room later still visibly shaken but refused my gift...i was sooo ofended i didnt even say anything to her that whole day but i left the earrings on her dresser because although she will never admit it i knew she wanted them...because they are sooo adorable! Besides that that thanksgiving/blackfriday break was amazing and i had fun seeing my friends and shadow of course! AND BY THE WAY THIS IS MY HUNDRETH POST ON MY BLOGG!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! THIS IS SUCH AN ACCOMPLISHMENT THIS BLOG HAS BEEN THROUGH IT ALL WITH ME THROUGH THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY TIMES BUT I KNOW I CAN WRITE ANYTHING HERE AND NOT BE AFRAID...BECAUSE ANYONE WHO READS THIS DOESN'T KNOW ME...BESIDES A COUPLE OF PEOPLE THAT I FULLY TRUST!
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