Heyooo web peoplesss... Soo today all I could think about is the holidays people have Christmas lights up and trees and stuff...and my dad is taking me shadow and two other friends ice skating...in rockefeller center and we will get to see the tree bottom line it will be the most romantic time ever! And then my mom wants to also bring me and shadow into new York to eat at this really fancy restaurant also romantic only down fall is she wants to bring his older brother and his girlfriend who we will call "the it's" shadows mom doesn't like for him and the it's to go places together because it "ends badly" whatever that means...I like his brother I have no problem with him i think he is pretty funny his girl friend is nice no matter what other people think...but to go anywhere shadow has to stay on his moms good side until the break...one more week..ldoesnt sound tool hard right.l. WRONG! She's pretty tough but her parenting makes shadow the way he is soo I can't be too mad I guess but I really hope nothing bad happens...
Yesterday I was actually at shadows house with the it's and other friends it was fun eating pizza and surfing tumblr...and then I walked over and saw ...it
Their Christmas tree. It was beautiful it even had a black angel on top...and even though I would never admit it I tears up a bit when I saw it. Because I never got to do stuff like that with my famil as a whole the closest I have ever gotten to a tree was this Little two foot tall fake pink Barbie tree...at my moms apartment...either way after I saw it I just wanted to be there in that room..l
I wanted to just let the lights shine on me and imagine it was all mine and the picture frame ornaments on the tree were from my childhood memories...it crushed me a little inside to know that would never be my reality...but I'm strong I'll live ....life goes on. So later on I decide I just need an excuse to stay in this room because I had this obvious connection with that tree...which sounds creepy but considering what I meant...cut me some slack. I spotted there giant piano and immediately sat at the bench and rattled off whatever notes came to mind which were the first five notes of fur Elise the Beethoven and the national anthem...I had the whole house helping me to figure out the rest of the notes to fur Elise but the whole time I'm sooo overwhelmed with the idea of the tree I couldn't focus as soon as I got home I turned my iPad on to the virtual piano and figured out the rest of the notes easily... For those of you who don't know I play the flute soo it's not like im some musically talented mastermind I can read notes I just have Noo clue where they are on the piano. I somehow managed to figure it out and I was satisfied and I just completely passed out right after.
Now I'm off to pretend that everything's okay and that I didn't wish everything about my home life was different...but never telling anyone sooo till next time
-blog ya later
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